Thinking My Life Over

As the days still pass by I can't help but to keep wondering why my niece's life is over, her work was just beginning. I think of how reckless and carefree I was with my own life putting myself into situations that many told me were no good for me, but I was headstrong and willful and nobody was going to tell me how to live my life and who to be with. My family is grieving for yet another child lost to us and it made me look over my life and the decisions I made when I was younger would  make up what my life is today. I took for granted that I would have children of my own, but now because of poor health it is not a possibility for me. When I was younger I felt invincible but when GOD showed me his true power I could only weep over the life he gave me how much of it I squandered being foolish and thinking I had all the time in the world. My sister Chapelle had four daughters and each one reminded me of myself at different stages. I saw so much of myself in Shannon, that drive to be independent at any cost, and love who I wanted to love even though being with them was slowly chipping away at me, but I had a hand in helping raise 10 beautiful and remarkable children who overcame so much in their young lives. I admire them for their tenacity and what two of them would have become had their lives not been cut short. I honor the memory of Samuel Marquese Washington and his younger sister Shannon Simone Washington and I celebrate their lives by putting mine in order. I also say to Scott Patrick, Reina Nichole Michael James, Bernard Sean, Brittany Selina, Raven Tyler, Yeoshua Samuel, and Antoinette Movada. I love each and every one of you. Take heed to that small voice inside that tells you when something is wrong that's GOD talking to you.