The Face of Heart Failure

I woke up this morning with a different perspective about my marriage. I ended my friendship with the gentlemen from my weight loss group. It just wasn't conducive to my long-term goals for my marriage. I took these vows and I have to be present and show up for my marriage like I need him to. Marriage is all about compromise and I need him to hear me when I voice my concerns to him about why I don't want to put another car in my name and why it's vitally important for him to get his license so he can be able to stand up and be a man in my eyes. I need him to tell me the truth about Orlando and why he was going over there every week. I just need him to be honest with me about why...stay tuned.

These are my wedding rings. They used to mean the world to me, but for the last three months or so they've been devoid of any meaning to me other than a constant reminder of why I don't want to be married to this man anymore. We have nothing in common. We're never on the same page financially.  I shouldn't have to ask him for money to pay bills when he should offer. It's not like I'm asking for an allowance each week, far from it. I asked him one time for $50 dollars just for myself and he hemned and hawed about it before he gave it to me. In all honesty I have fallen out of love with my husband and I don't want to be married to him anymore. When I approach this subject with him he is going to react badly. Oh, he says that if a woman doesn't want him that all she has to do is say so, but he's very spiteful when his feelings are hurt and I don't want any drama, but the longer I keep quiet the more I feel my anger building and I don...

This degree was 30 years in the making. I am so proud of my accomplishment. I was absolutely elated when I got it in the mail. My next goal is to work on getting my Licensed Practical Nursing. I just have to figure out how to finance my education. The cost of the program is $6895.00 for the entire cost. I just think I may have to go the route of the CNA in order to fund my education. I'm just not sure if I can do that back breaking work of a CNA anymore. I'm not in my twenties anymore and it is grueling work. I want to work 11-7 because it's a slower pace for someone like me.

Finally paid off my tuition for my Bachelor's degree. It's been a long time coming. It's taken me thirty-seven years to get that degree and to my sister Sandra who made it possible for me to do I will forever be grateful.

Got on my scale today went from my starting weight at 363 to 318 I was shocked when I heard the number especially since I'm just three days post op. I'm excited but it did come as quite shock to have lost that much weight in such a short time. I can't wait for the rest of my transformation. It's taking some getting used to dealing with the smaller portions. I had some wonton soup and I tried eating the wonton dumplings, I chewed them up and spit them out because I didn't want to make myself sick. This is still a process for me, Dr. Rekkas gave me this new opportunity so I can't waste it. This is my new normal.

With my surgery day fast, I am saying goodbye to being obese and unhappy. I am looking forward to being healthy and getting my life back on track. I am hoping on my weight loss journey to lose enough to be healthy enough to go back to school to get my Licensed Practical Nurse and go back to work on the 11-7 shift. I wanted to be a nurse in my early twenties, but maybe God didn't think I was ready for that responsibility back then, but now 30 years later I'm 52 now and my maturity level is different than it was back then. I am truly excited about watching my body transform.

I got married February 13th, 2022 but it was yesterday that for all intents and purposes I reluctantly and officially became Mrs. Troupe. I carried my first husband's last name for well over a decade because I knew what a major hassle it was going to be to change it. He on the other hand was happier than a sissy at Raiford. I felt like part of me relented because he just kept harping on my not having his last name. When in actuality I wanted my father's name back. I should have never changed it to begin with. I was mad with Tony when I married Earnest and Earnest only married me to try and get his hands on money that was left to him by his grandmother, but he had to get and stay married for at least a year which is why he kept using delaying tactics trying to make it to that one year mark but our divorce was final and I was free. I should have gotten my daddy's name back then, and not let go of it again. I think deep down I just didn't want to be legally known as Mrs. T...