Nothing is worth My Peace

I promise I tried to stay within this marriage and it’s just not worth all this hassle to stay with this man. We don’t communicate we don’t spend time together and the sex is lackluster at best.
I feel like I’m raising a grown ass man. He doesn’t even do the bare minimum in this marriage and I truly know I am in this situation-ship all by myself. I’m tired of talking to him about his behavior and his lack of action. I think it’s best we go our separate ways and spare each other any more of the heartbreak and confusion.
I certainly don’t want to keep going around and around with him about me not staying in bed at night. He complains when I’m up late talking to my sister. He complains because of the night shift that I work. I like being at work at night just so I don’t have to deal with him and all the backhanded nonsense of his slick mouth. 
Writing is my only outlet and even that is starting to suffer. I used to write about my feelings almost daily but it’s an uphill battle to even do that because he complains about me being on my phones all the time as if he pays any bills.

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