I been writing more of my niece's book and it's actually getting harder the more I write about her. Hopefully I will get to see her again. I struggle with her death on a day to day basis and I know getting upset all the time and crying is not good for my heart because it keeps my heart rate up and I am agitated because the more I write the more answers I have about what happened. I try to stay calm but it's so hard not to break down and cry each time, it also isn't good for me to be upset about this whole thing due to the fact that I am an emotional eater and it could go left real quick for me. Over the weekend it was hard maintaining my diet regimen because Shannon wasn't far from my thoughts. I just kept asking her for a sign that she was OK and when we were in my cousin's car one of her favorite old songs came on and it was then that I felt she was ok RIP Lady Baller.
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