The Face of Heart Failure

Sex should be pleasurable. I for one am sexually stunted. There's no intamacy and he's too rough in his lovemaking. I don't enjoy it 80% of the time. I have told him that at times he is too rough with me, but that seems to go in one ear and out the other. Sexual chemistry is a vital component to any healthy marriage, this lackluster performance leaves much to be desired. What I'm missing is passion and genuine desire, not simply him getting off and I am lying back and thinking of England.

I'm still being triggered with eating foods that aren't good for me. I didn't realize how stressful my home situation is for me. I am terrified that we will all have to seperate for a while until we can find a place to be comfortable. My new husband may have to go back and live with his mother for a few weeks until we can find a place that will rent to us. The major hurdle would be our rental history. Because Sandra and I have evictions people aren't so quick to want to give us a chance to prove we would be a good tenant even though i have lived in this complex for 11 years. I worry about them when they sleep because they depend on me for a place to live. Father God knows I need help figuring this out. I should be sleeping, but that's hard to do when my family is in jeopardy.

Today I married my friend....that is all.