The Passage of Time
This can be a great healing or revealing time for a person. So much growth can happen if you allow it to. With my mother's passing. I am so overwhelmed by the thought that she is gone. Having gotten used to her fighting her way through major adversity. I didn't stop to think of how tired she was.
I understand her in that way simply because the body is not designed to last forever. It is fragile and resilient all at the same time. It is amazing that the human body can heal itself if given the passage of time to do so.
I worry on a daily basis that I am running out of time to do the things that I am really passionate about, but my body isn't cooperating. I can't walk very far without the assistance of a walker and standing is hard as well. I get very winded doing simple tasks, but to have to fight to prove that to the powers that be that I am still disabled escapes me.
I feel like I was penalized for not being able to attend the hearing and now I have to go before a judge to prove my case. All I can do is present myself and who I am and what my life is like with all of the things going on with me medically. I am still in this holding pattern fighting for my survival, but only time will tell if I prevail.
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I understand her in that way simply because the body is not designed to last forever. It is fragile and resilient all at the same time. It is amazing that the human body can heal itself if given the passage of time to do so.
I worry on a daily basis that I am running out of time to do the things that I am really passionate about, but my body isn't cooperating. I can't walk very far without the assistance of a walker and standing is hard as well. I get very winded doing simple tasks, but to have to fight to prove that to the powers that be that I am still disabled escapes me.
I feel like I was penalized for not being able to attend the hearing and now I have to go before a judge to prove my case. All I can do is present myself and who I am and what my life is like with all of the things going on with me medically. I am still in this holding pattern fighting for my survival, but only time will tell if I prevail.
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