Sleeping Dogs Lie and Renewed Purpose

Sewing your oats.....let him be a man.....I'm a man, I'm going to look......blah, blah, blah......these are clear excuses for a man who wants to fool around and still have you there. Classic "cake and eat it too" mentality of the average man. As fragile as his ego is and some men have a "Super Ego" he can not fathom or even comprehend the devastation that he leaves in his wake when he treats a woman as disposable to him and his cause of notch making and dap-getting or hi-fiving bullshit from a man who is so used to having more than one woman at a time, it is simple behavior to him, but breaking it down, you know it's a defense mechanism to protect those fragile men who will not only not let you all the way, but will stand outside and help throw rocks at you saying "go away", but stay close, I want you when I need you and not before. Almost like the unwritten code between men, that women were only to speak when spoken to and most certainly not when men are speaking. I think my husband was actually born in the 40'-50's and I most certainly be a housewife, where I fall short is that I am not waiting at the door with his slippers and a cocktail at 5:30pm on the dot.  We don't have those honest to goodness traditional roles that I would love, it's kind of disjointed as far as that goes, but I love him no matter the consequences. We each threaten to walk away from each other, but it hasn't happened yet. I want us to get back on track to where we enjoyed each others company and we were all the other needed.