Reconciling Your Past

You never in a million years think that someone you have loved for what seems like a lifetime would move on without you, or never hesitated to try and win you back, because they always knew deep down you would come back. Sometimes we as women break up with a man to stop a behavior in him, or wanted to be taken seriously by him, or simply acknowledge by him that you meant more to him than you did.
For us women who have loved men who love to dog out women, there is a fundamental issue here. No man or woman ever started out to be that selfish bastard or hardened women who has a electrified fence around her heart, someone hurt them deeply that made them that way. It was never my fault that he could not love me the way I wanted to be loved, I NEVER MADE MY INTENTIONS KNOWN TO HIM. I put up with being put on the sideline because I was the one invading another person's space.
My former husband did not really stand a chance even though he was conning me all along, my heart was somewhere else with some one else and that made it bad for me.

Everyone has a past and I have the major undertaking of letting mine go and starting fresh. I had to stop questioning why he couldn't and I know my ex-husband had the same question about why I couldn't, but being completely honest with yourself and re-examining the actions in your life and how you even fit in your own dynamic is worth investigating. I think I am embarking on a journey or self discovery and self-awareness of who I am as a person and who I would like to be. GOD has some amazing things to show me as long as I remain open and receptive to them.