One of Those Days

I've been sort of melancholy today. The more I read about my illness the more I get upset that I feel powerless to help myself. It feels like an constant uphill battle and this is one of those discouraging days, I know this is my "test" in life to see if I will sink or swim. I know I have to fight to live, but today, I feel like my battle is getting the best of me. The devil is now attacking me in my finances and I am doing all I can to stay afloat. I looked into trying to go back to work, at least part time. The social security office has this Ticket to Work program that will help people like me try and obtain employment training, cause lets face it my whole working career has been mostly nursing and security and those two jobs require that you be alert for them, you have someone's life in your hands; literally. I need to go back to work to survive. I am barely hanging on, this is the time I need to pray harder and let the LORD carry me because today I am too weak to carry myself. I'm gonna go to bed and pray tomorrow looks better.