The Face of Heart Failure

The one who comes for me will know that I am a treasure. He will see it in the sparkle in my eyes when I see him. The one who comes for me will know that I compliment his life By the way I create a loving home for us. The one who comes for me will not be afraid to love just me. Because I will be more than enough for him, because he waited......for God to send me. The one who comes for me has been looking for me all his life waiting for the other half of his heart The one who comes for me will know me, love me and have faith in me because GOD created ME for the one.......who comes for me. Original Poem (c) 2019 Susan B. Donaldson

 Stop using your kids to get ahead in life. It really sickens me to see some parents use their kids because they have made such a mess of their lives. From selling your kids to the highest bidder during tax season to taking their money from school when you haven't attended any classes. Or getting them to rent things for you because you can't stand on your own name. Your children don't owe you anything but love and to make them feel guilty for not wanting to help you is a shame. I could see if you have worked all your life and then you got down on your luck and need some help, but to just outright scam them is sick. Parents are supposed to be the teacher and protector of the children not the ones hurting them.

I love you Lord and give all the honor and praise to you for keeping me shielded from my enemies and keeping me safe from harm. I know you will heal me from this sickness and make me whole again or when you're ready for me to be with you, whatever way you choose I am OK with that because, I choose YOU.I am so blessed to be learning about you.

I feel so good today. It's beautiful because GOD woke me up this morning. My cousins are coming down this weekend. It's really breezy today but it feels good. I got in a good 30 minute workout using myself as the weight. I worked out with the 5 lb hand weights too. I really get a rush from working out clears out the cobwebs.

My momma has NEVER HAD TO QUESTION who MY DADDY was, he knows me inside out and he loves me beyond measure. He Gave me a WONDERFUL EARTHBOUND FATHER TO COME THROUGH. She insisted on using protection, because she was "done" having kids after my oldest sister was born, BUT MY DADDY said, no honey I got a few more for you. There would have been 6 of us, but MY DADDY needed the other two. HE KNOWS WHY I AM THE WAY THAT I AM, HE KNOWS HOW MANY HAIRS ARE ON MY HEAD, he knows how many years I'm supposed to be here. Every quirky thing about me, that may drive other people up the wall MY DADDY knows why I do them. My DADDY HAS A LOT OF KIDS, SOME OF US ARE SUPER GOOD AND SOME OF US ARE SUPER BAD, BUT BECAUSE HE'S MY DADDY HE TAKES CARE OF EACH ONE OF HIS KIDS WITHOUT BEING TOLD TO DO SO. He doesn't worry about HIS BABIES Momma's trying to keep us from him or run game on him and CHILD SUPPORT IS NEVER AN ISSUE, because MY DADDY IS ALWAYS RIGHT ON TIME WI...

I haven't had a panic attack in nearly a year. Last night was a bad one. I went to bed relatively early for me, when I awoke in the middle of the night feeling as if I could catch my breath, it scared me so bad that feeling which triggered the panic attack. Since the death of my niece I have been baracading myself in my room at night which is something I did not used to do. I always slept with the door open, but as of late this is how it's been. I remember when I was diagnosed with my panic disorder I was instructed to avoid stimulating triggers, smoking, coffee anything with caffeine in it and chocolate, those were my triggers when I was overly stimulated, if you have never had a panic attack you wouldn't know what I deal with when it happens. It can last from a few minutes to as long as a day and I'm powerless to stop them from happening, then it dawned on me. I have been spending a lot of time up at my cousins and have had my fair share of sugary drinks which is some...

I woke up this morning with a phone call from my God-baby. We had a short brief chat and I came away from it with the conclusion is that we as women put ourselves in situations we don't have to be in when it comes to a man. WE ARE BUSY JUMPING UP AND DOWN GOING "PICK ME!, PICK ME". We have a gift and to recognize that gift gives US the power. Wars have been waged over it, friendships and families have been divided over the beguiling ways of a woman. She is loving when she wants to be, conniving when she has to be and treacherous when she has been scorned. It takes a lot for a woman to give herself to a man, some do it with dignity and gracefulness, but the game is still the same. Like with a peacock show. We are in such deep competition with each other that we would murder just to be loved by someone, but if you can't love yourself and respect who you are as a woman then neither will he. People have forgotten the natural order of things, the man is supposed to be the ...