Lackluster Sex

We had our 2nd session of counseling and some revelations were made. I told him what I needed from him sexually and tonight was more of the same lackluster sex. It's borning. There's no passion and it was over in less than 5 minutes, and he's sound asleep. 
It takes a woman more time to get there and he wonders why I watch 50 Shades of Grey so much. I'm looking for mind blowing sex. I honestly can't see my married life continuing this way. Seriously he fucks like a horny 17 year old who's gonna get caught by his mother. I can't keep going this way something has got to give.
I don't mind his oral skills but I do have to remind him not to be so rough with me when he does that. Now I'm triggered. Shit!

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