The Face of Heart Failure

I made the decision to recommit myself to my husband and give my marriage a honest try and to be more present and productive in my life. The last 6 months were really tough with trusting my husband and not being so afraid he would pull another disappearing act on me. The fear is still there even with him trying to show me he's open to changing. I'm also changing gyms today from Anytime Fitness to Planet Fitness. They have a 30 minute circuit that will help guide me and not make me feel so lost.

I woke up this morning with a different perspective about my marriage. I ended my friendship with the gentlemen from my weight loss group. It just wasn't conducive to my long-term goals for my marriage. I took these vows and I have to be present and show up for my marriage like I need him to. Marriage is all about compromise and I need him to hear me when I voice my concerns to him about why I don't want to put another car in my name and why it's vitally important for him to get his license so he can be able to stand up and be a man in my eyes. I need him to tell me the truth about Orlando and why he was going over there every week. I just need him to be honest with me about why...stay tuned.

It amazês me how someone can come into your life when everything just seems upside down and you're so unhappy and stuck in a relationship that you don't really want to be in, but you also want to pursue the possibilities with the other person but you don't because you are tied to another. There's an emotional connection growing and all it's doing is magnifying how unhappy my home life is. I honestly think my husband is just biding his time to see if I will give in and get another vehicle for him. I think that's the only reason he's trying to help me get into another one.  All I know is something has got to give.