The Face of Heart Failure

We have not been married 90 days and trouble is lurking. He's reverting to his old ways and I'm shutting down emotionally. Tommy and I seem to just be existing in this marriage. I don't feel appreciated. I honestly don't know why he asked me to marry him again and part of me is starting to feel like I made a mistake in remarrying him.

Sitting here with my thoughts. There's a lot of them too. I should be sleeping, but I went so early that now I can't seem to settle back down. My husband on the other hand, can fall asleep just like that. Started my liquid diet Sunday and ended up eating 5 olives because I just wanted something savory. I know why I have to do the liquid diet it's to prep my liver so it shrinks so they can see my stomach better, but that doesn't mean it's not a little challenging. I just wish some people would stop trying to convince me not to do the surgery. They've offered their advice, but this is my life I'm trying to save. I need them to support my discision not try and derail it by trying to change my mind. They're not carrying 200 plus extra pounds on their bodies. They don't have to use assistive devices just to help them breath or sleep. Getting help with lising the weight could very well prolong my life. I know the 200 aren't going to drop off magically,

I began my road to wellness on my late niece's birthday. It was what I needed to do for me. I vame to Dr. Stelio Rekkas for help. He is a bariactric weight loss surgeon. I started the process of getting the surgery to help me lose and keep the weight off. Two of the people that are closest to me don't want me to have the procedure done because once I do it it cannot be undone. I told my husband yesterday that I needed his help and to stop bringing certain items in the house. I'm just trying to do what I can to be the best version of myself that I can be. It is in this moment that I have to be selfish and choose me this time. Nobody but me can make this change concerning my life and well-being.