Losing Sight of My Goal

I stepped on the scale at 10:48 this morning and was upset to see that I had gained three pounds. My stress eating is getting out of hand for me. I know what it is but I'm trying not to say it, but I feel it. I don't want to be married to him anymore. No matter what was discussed in therapy I don't want to be married to him any longer...there I said it. It doesn't make me feel bad to say it, but that's how I really feel.
To be brutally honet, I don't like how I am when I am with him. He doesn't challenge me mentally, spiritually or physically. The truth of the matter is Pastor wants me to let go and let him lead the household, but when I've given a man control in my life it all went left, and I was in financial ruin.
I don't know if she's the best counselor for this type of situation and I don't know if Pastor Frank is either when the root of the matter is we shouldn't have gotten married again. 
I went against my own better judgement out of my need to want to go back and fix ny past.

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